National Coming Out Day

Looking back on my life thus far, I'd say I have been pretty blessed with what God has given me. I have an amazing husband, beautiful home and surrounded by incredible people who love me for who I am. If you would have asked me ten years ago where I would be at the age of 24, I probably wouldn't have had an answer because I didn't think I would be here.

Growing up in a very conservative, backwards-thinking town is difficult; especially when you know deep down inside that you are not like the other boys. I remember as a teenager waking up every morning thinking to myself, "I wish I didn't exist or could change who I know I am. Maybe then kids wouldn't be so mean". I put on a fake smile as I made my way through my day at school. To my friends, I was happy. To myself, I was waiting for that last "faggot" from classmates that would push me over the edge.

I remember the day I came out so vividly. It had been an emotional roller coaster all day for me and I remember having thoughts that I should just end my life because nobody will love and accept me for being gay besides my mother. I called my best friend, Katelyn, crying hysterically and asked her if she would meet me somewhere to talk.

We sat in my car for a half an hour as I balled my eyes out while she kept asking me what was wrong. I told her I had kissed a guy and for the longest time, knew I was gay. What she said to me that night was everything I hoped and prayed I would hear. Acceptance. Support. She may not realize it but she saved my life that night. She made me realize that people will love me no matter what because I am still Shane, regardless of whether I am gay or straight. She gave me the courage that night to tell other people and start living my life the way I was meant to live it. I am gay, but that is just a fraction of the person who I am and to hell with those who can't accept me.

On this National Coming Out Day, I want to thank her, as well as the millions of other "Katelyns" out there who give those individuals the love and support they are so desperately seeking. Always remember, It Gets Better.